life after life

After so long of shutting myself  off, it is time for me to start typing again. Just one word can represent the meaning of my whole blog today : Changes

I had experience a lot from last year..From a bad boy changing to a normal life style aint easy at all. But now, i just feel that my life is full of hopes again. Actually, i just dont know what i want yet. Good time? good future?? these two things just never get along together. If i wan a good time now, i would have lost my good future. Of coz vice versa.. after 2 month of changing my life to better man, it is tiring. really, it is fucking tired.

waking up early in the morning, off to work, no more late night drinking. and of coz tons of work to be done in the office. It is just tiring. Somehow, i realise that i am not doing good enough. I am not that good as i thought i am. I still have lots of things to learn. and trust me, laziness?? it is fucking out of my dictionary

Hurray!!

After a long run of relationship, the story of me and her is now officially shut down. The paper heart of mine now no longer remain as fragile as a piece of paper yet it grown up. Instead of paper heart, maybe it has grow up as a steel heart already.

Good memories are easy to be implant but they are hard to be pull out. The memories of you and me have been shut in deepest part of my heart. All the feeling, everything about her are now the part of my memory . They may hurt me sometimes yet they may enlighten me somehow.

Today, i walked past the place that we used to go. The feeling is kinda strange. It is like a soldier fighting without companies. I still remember we used to eat, hug, play in the same table of the same place. But now, it changed. The one that sitting next to me now, is no longer you but a replacement of yours.

Letting go doesn’t mean that my love to you have been dried up but it means the enhancement of my love towards you. Give you a chance to find someone that suite you better, someone that better than me, someone can give you better life than me . Is this consider as idiotic or mighty?

This is a very subjective question. But if you really love her, it will be hard to let her leave you. People will try their best in keeping their beloved next to you. However, if your beloved’s heart no longer with you or you know that you have guilt towards her, then letting go may be a good idea.

Today , 21 july 2009, i have totally forget about you. and you no longer be part of my memory and you are no longer and never have the chance to appear in front of me. Thanks for everything and i appreciate it.

I am going to proceed with my new life and maybe a new girlfriend as well...=)

谢谢你们

六月的十五日，

对很多人来说，

可能是个平凡的一天，

可是，

对我，

对我的家人，

对我的爱人，

对我的 camwhores’

对我的兄弟，

对我的朋友，

来说，

是个很特别的一天，

因为二十年前的今天，

是我人生的起点，

在这一天，

我开始了我第一次的大哭，

我开始了我挨苦的日子。。。

非常谢谢你们，

谢谢你们把我这个笨蛋看得那么重，

谢谢你们陪我一起挨苦，

人生这段路，

如果没有你们，

我都不知道怎样？

我可能很讨人厌，

因为，

我不喜欢伪装，

我喜欢真实，

所以，

可能我说话有点直，

请原谅我的直。。

可是，

每一年，

我都会许同一个愿，

我希望，

以我的能力，

我可以看到每个人的笑容，

我也希望，

我在Taman Megah 的孩子们，

快快乐乐的生活下去，

你们的勇气，

我身为你们的爸爸，

我觉得很骄傲，

爸爸最近很忙，

等我得空，

我就会去找你们。。。

如果有如果

在网上，无端端听见了一把声音，

感觉上，

很清， 舒服，

就好像在平静的水上点了一下，水慢慢地泛开的高感觉，

阿福， 鄧福如

一个简单的女生，

带着白色的耳机，

将平凡变成不平凡，

利用音乐热情来打开每个人的心门，

让人们透过音乐，来感受他的不平凡。

如果有如果，

单单这5个字，

让我想了很多，

’如果有如果‘是不是想讲的就是希望？

还是后悔？

人间有希望，

所以不要放弃，

其实，

那句话，

我一点都不赞成，

对我来言，

希望其实是人们给自己的借口，

当人们最低落的时候或无助时，

他们唯一的寄托是希望，

把一切都交给天去决定，

口里一直重复：

我希望。。。。！

thanks

人言可畏，
有时你所听见的和你想的是不一样的，
一件事，
别只听一方面，
成长吧，
学学从别的角度来看，
你会发现，
你是多么的无知，白痴。。

想一个人，
可能是件费神的事，
可是我却很享受这份思念，
因为，
我已经把他给忘记了，
我本留给他的那份思念，
已被别人抢去，
我不知道你到底怎样想我，
可是和你在一起的一年，
是我最开心的一年，
谢谢你。

不管你在我背后说些什么，
我不会怪你，
因为我们之间的快乐已盖过你的错，
每当想起你，
我会想起你的笑容，
可是那已是过去，
笑容还在，可是感觉已跑了，
以前很依赖我的你，一定要长大，
要学会，
独立，
分享，
保护，
放松，
家人。。

名

每当一段感情开始的时候，
情侣们一定会很头痛，
因为，
他们的第一个考题，
是他们该用什么名字来称呼对方
小小的一个问题，
千万别小看他，
往往会因为一个称呼而导致一个感情结束，
打个比喻：
一个大男人， 你不可能叫他baby
因为那会使到他突然变娘，
男人应该是保护女人的，
可是如果因为一个名字，
而使到男人本该有的威风削减，
是多么不值。

名字，
对于我来说，
看起来平凡的他，
内心拥有这一股魔力，
他能释放爱的魔力，
相反的，
他也能释放摧毁爱情的力量，
他很专一，
选好他，
因为他会跟你们一辈子，
他会随着你的爱情长跑，
跟着你们跑，
希望跑到终点。

祝福你们！！

Hopes

Sometimes,

always have a smile on the face,

it doesn’t mean that you are happy and satisfied with your life.

Maybe , the smile is a camouflage,

It prevents people from worrying you and perhaps with just a smile,

you can make more smile from that.

Do you aware that Mr McD always have a smile on his face?

No matter he is sad or happy,

He has no choice but to remain his smile on his face.

This is because he knows one thing for sure,

He is made to make the world full of smile,

He always have a dream ,

He dream that he can see laugh and smile at any corner of the world.

We might from the different countries ,

however, precisely, we are under the same sky.

We have the same Father,

of coz, we live in a same planet.

Indeed, we are one big family.

No matter how far are we, just stare at the sky,

Maybe we may feel the existence of each other even just a minute or second.

Sometimes,

people’s eye are just being covered,

we rely too much in our eye,

How about heart?

Have you ever try looking at the world by using your heart?

Just take a few minute,

close up your eye in the middle of a wide green field,

concentrate and feel the wind breeze,

Trust me, you will find it pretty amazing.

Ps: Final is around the corner. Need to really push myself up and move myself back to the track. Cheers for the best result..God blessed